Post by Hinahon:Blind on Feb 20, 2008 11:26:58 GMT
I decided to take a break on all those new things for the forum or the website.
Those days, i've been working to try to figure out how to improve the new site... but at the time being, i have no satisfaction in working for it anymore. It only seems to be a waste of time for me.
I break my back working for hours on a website no one will ever watch, not even the members of this forum.
And even more, I don't want to be working on it when not even Danina cares. We've been talking about new things for the forum, that still aren't done. And I refuse to be the only one working on it. Yes she doesn't have much time, I agree on that, but that's not everything.
I take a break also from all this, no i'm not saying i'm leaving the forum, I couldn't. But no i don't want to be very active and post in games thread and everything. I don't see why i should be active... i'm hurt enough and I don't need more right now. No one knows what's happening in my family, no i'm never talking about what's happening and yet, it feels like no one would excuse me for being sad or anything else.
I have enough of being here all day long and see less and less posts in that forum
I have enough of seeing the "2nd admin" only coming to do the rps as if it was a "must be done" and then being away on fuck knows what forum or website
i have enough of pretending i'm ok because i'm not and i am sick of hearing people say they care when they don't.
i'm not being agressive right now just really hurt and sad, yet i know that no one will care about that.
Those days, i've been working to try to figure out how to improve the new site... but at the time being, i have no satisfaction in working for it anymore. It only seems to be a waste of time for me.
I break my back working for hours on a website no one will ever watch, not even the members of this forum.
And even more, I don't want to be working on it when not even Danina cares. We've been talking about new things for the forum, that still aren't done. And I refuse to be the only one working on it. Yes she doesn't have much time, I agree on that, but that's not everything.
I take a break also from all this, no i'm not saying i'm leaving the forum, I couldn't. But no i don't want to be very active and post in games thread and everything. I don't see why i should be active... i'm hurt enough and I don't need more right now. No one knows what's happening in my family, no i'm never talking about what's happening and yet, it feels like no one would excuse me for being sad or anything else.
I have enough of being here all day long and see less and less posts in that forum
I have enough of seeing the "2nd admin" only coming to do the rps as if it was a "must be done" and then being away on fuck knows what forum or website
i have enough of pretending i'm ok because i'm not and i am sick of hearing people say they care when they don't.
i'm not being agressive right now just really hurt and sad, yet i know that no one will care about that.